[paradox]

i guess the mugging life gets to you now and then. which brings me here.

somehow i find myself in a paradox. its like being caught between the devil and the deep blue sea.

expectations. just was thinking about them. on one hand, they're bad, cos u expect things from ppl that they cannot deliver, and hence u get annoyed.

on the other hand, living without expecting anything from anyone sounds equally bad. the allure of a noble truly altruistic life aside, i believe its actually bad to not expect things. it somehow makes u stand still, in this life when we need to have wind in our sails to keep moving. (makes u vulnerable to the sniper out there just waiting to get us). like leon says to mathilda in The Professional, Life is movement, death is a part of it.

my new gameplan. i guess to expect things in accordance to the roles we assign people in our life. but in that aspect. i guess a general scaling down. keep it simple, keep it beautiful.

contented. once again.

actually i'm quite happy i still have this blog. its like the end sum of my own program to flush out the anomalies in my system, in my world. just like how neo is in the matrix. how beautiful is it to be lost in our own thoughts, ahead of everyone else. sometimes its good to leave the world behind. exist in your own unique world where u can hear the reverberations of your own voice within the boundless confines of your mind, your dreams, your hopes.

... and we keep going on and on, hoping we'll get there someday