[two things]

i've learnt two things.

everything in life with moderation so that we can live in eternity's sunrise.

our drive to make things better will ultimately only lead us back to ourselves, in the hope of finding things that cannot be caught with a net, hunted with a knife, mined for the depths of the earth. hence why princes and kings become ascetics.

conclusion: focus on the present, no need to create a future within your mind. life will present u with one. just accept whatever comes and make the best of it.