[bloodied, but unbowed]

yupz. the above describes how i currently feel. somehow i dun feel all that good either, haven't had time to clear up the blood and the deep cuts. guess all i had enough time to do was to push it all aside, stay strong and push on. but after the exams, i'm really due for a good servicing.

learnt something today that helps cope with the loneliness at times and helps me focus on work. i guess its worthwhile to compare life's commitments as different gear ratios, with you having control of the clutch. as much as i thought i could, sticking to one gear has somewhat worn me out, and possibly damaged that gear ratio itself. helps if sometimes, we can just clutch in, change to a new gear and work with that gear for awhile.

more reasons for me to stick to learning manual.

anyhow. had a really scary dream just now. somehow i believe i created it. kinda know wad my worst fear is now.