[ so why am i angry? ]

someone just got the brunt of my anger.

somehow i'm angry for someone for changing the course of my life. i'm wondering if i'm really doing what i really like. will i go as far as the rest, who may be motivated be a lifelong dream. for me, all i'm doing is making the best of what i can.

in my past, the only thing i've done that i really like was scouts. and hell yeah, i did it to the best of my abilities, guess i surpassed others, people who may not have felt for it as much as i did.

its strange, life.

isn't it weird how after being pushed down the path alot of the time, where decisions are made by others, some familiar faces, some unfathomable, we sometimes get those rare chances to make a stand about our life?

i guess these are the chances that we get to show what we truly are made of.

i hope i get to make the choices for the rest of my life.

i guess that's all i could wish for, at this point of time. at least even if it went wrong i'd only have myself to blame. not put it on someone else, as i've just been doing.

argh.

well, there's still that future out there that's still supposedly in our hands.