[choices]

nothing like a great movie to get the emotions circulating again. not exactly a good thing but its better to face it now.

watched the lake house. very nice show. guess the bit that gets u is the fact that it contains themes we all can relate with. that of waiting for that loved one.

which is quite a poignant issue personally in my life.

one choice seems the right thing to do, something all the great morals inside of me will be so proud of me. its like a feeling when u look up to a pantheon of gods all smiling down upon you. but that's all you're gonna get to face the flood of misery that creeps up when you're most vulnerable.

then there's the practical choice. the kind we'd expect grown ups to do. i'm wondering whether to classify myself as grown up but i guess nobody not everyone who has grown up chooses to acknowledge. seems to be like a concession to the fact that life has indeed screwed up upside down and you're nothing but a victim living out your sorry life. i refuse to fall into that category even though i may have been wallowing in it for a very long time now.

but then again. none of these choices offers a surgical seperation from the miseries of the other choice. so technically, i'm wondering if there's any choice at all.

in any case, i guess the only solace is that the 'next' person to sweep me off my feet is gonna make all this worthwhile. not exactly worthwhile, but after misery, don't we all deserve some good stuff?

and yeah guess i made the right choice. give it your 100%. sure you'll crash and burn at times. but damn u'll never ever get any closer to heaven.

the rangola song keeps on playing.