[amazing]

somehow i find life amazing, as depressing as it is currently.

how we all try to get somewhere, how our dreams, already influenced by our reality, gets snipped, curtailed along the way. the dude who dreams of driving a porsche, learns to be satisfied with a toyota altis. how that dream is slowly 'downgraded'. finally any manual car will do. then when he gets there he wonders, what next? did he set his sights too low? or was it too painful to hold on to dreams u know you can never reach?

the man who dreams of a perfect companion, finds someone he can talk to... he tries make her understand him, hoping to accelerate the process to get to his "happily ever after" part of the story.

how we listen to others' stories, wonder how perfect it all sounds. we comfort ourselves with the thought that maybe they have their problems too.

how everything leads to everything else. yet sometimes, everything seems to spring from nothing. why did hate first come about? where did love come from?

for now, i'm gonna keeping searching within me for the answers, as the world is so vast and mutable. the moment u change your perspective u find yourself in a new world. people appear different, sometimes the world seems to smile with you, the other times it glares at you for no apparently reason.

as depressing as it, i guess i'm good. somehow ah? =)