[life goes on]

saturday was 01 campfire/annual show. well maybe we've all just gotten sick of the video + show concept, maybe we all could use a simple campfire's-burning-draw-nearer kinda campfire. been a long time since i attended one of those btw. still remember have to soak the wooden chunks in kerosene. then dry them. nice.

really looking forward to tomorrow. i'm hoping somehow i'm reborn tml, finally able to cast aside everything, anything, anybody who's been holding me back. just open your wings, catch the upward breeze and soar. For the One who's always been looking out for me, please give me the strength and courage to let me be all that i can be.

it feels like the first day of going to RI. check whether your shoes are polished.even the tiny specks of dust over the day must be exterminated. plan timetable. see which class/ clinical group you're in. haven't gotten to deciding what to wear, just off yet. but definitely gonna iron better than i usually do. and yeah just remembered wanna send some dudes some smses!

first impressions count =)

btw, managed to finally extract the photos from my own camera, had to charge the lousy batteries first. i miss the place somehow, i guess i miss the company much more, and leaving all my worries when i crossed the causeway. more msgs due?

wow. more things to do. good things.

somehow i'm always afraid my past experience has screwed me for life. quite coincidentally, just as i was thinking about it, stumbled about this segment of a tamil movie. this guy was charged in court for attempting suicide. he accepts wadeva punishment the court will give him but claims that the girl that caused his suicide attempt should also be prosecuted. well she's hauled up in court, she comes to learn from the millions of sources how much he cared about her. btw, she dumped him cos they were off different status (he sells tea. she's some rich kid studying college). finally she changes her mind and declares that she'll marry him, and the court throws out the case. so outside the court, she comes up all smiley to him. (at this point, i was SERIOUSLY hoping he WON'T do the TAMIL MOVIE thing, which would be to just say "hey i love you, come let's live happily ever after") and yes. he did NOT. badass scene lah. excerpt...

guy: it took u all these other ppl to know how much i loved u, yet when i myself pleaded and cried in front of you, u couldn't see it... u din like me cos i can't speak english, well here's the only word i know, GOODBYE (of course this Goodbye is repeated like three times, the classic ECHO effect used for impactful stuff)

BADASS.

anyhow quite alot of parallels with my own life, now and then, so yeah quite a memorable movie.

a new age is upon me, as i race towards that milestone when i reach 21, so many things i hope to achieve by then.

yet the shroud of microB will haunt me, i will do the necessary.